i always be used to alone...anytime..anything...

damn down mood...
after i break with someone...
i just a human that without soul...
just keeping in my bad mood...
whatever today..i have a big laugh...
i also can't feel i'm truly happy at all...
not like before anymore..
just a small kidding, then can laugh so louder like a idiot...

when i can get bck the true Js choong??
next year or when??
damn feeling likes i lack spare parts...
lack the love feelings??
lack the feel of the caring??
bad bad mood today...
think to tells all  my mind to my best franz...
i noe she is busy at everyday...
so,i just can keep all secret in my deeply heart...
when i feels too bad mood untill beh tahan...
i will eat some sweet...to relax my mind...
it not work at all...watever..it can make me easy a while...

izit i really is a trouble guys??
izit my best franz feel like this too??
scared to hear about my else...
scared to hear my voice...
scared i'm asking she many question??
i just wanna someone comes to care about me...
it's too hard??

axcept myself...
just my family n my ipoh franz can make me feel warm...
now, i noes the society is cruel...
without diploma..without full of knowledge...
it's just equal a white paper...
i dun wan bcum like thats...
but...the economy of my house...make me so trouble...
if after 2years...my sis still study...
my house still can't without me...
what i should do??
giving up of my dream??
i dun think so.....
i should find my way to complete the thing i wanna to do...
i hope i can b....