i think to grow up in others ppl eyes...

i think to grow up...
i dun wan still is a child in others eyes...
even my parents too...
i try to congrats the boy that i love get a happiness love...
watever i feel damn heartbreaker....
i just tell myself...
watever, i also will love u always...
untill u married...


i make a idiot decision just now...
i stop to block him n his GF...
i wanna see his face...
i think to noe his news....
i know this will make me cry...but...
thats my decided...
after i stop the block of him...
search his facebook name...
his photo are appear...
damn missing....damn love it...
but..his not mine...
after that..i search her GF profile...
her face in front me...
she smile so sweet...more sweet than me...
my brain are thinking...
izit his really love this smile..??
think to crying...but...i should strength...
i hurt myself one more time...


5months ago...
i still love him...who can tell me why??
i trying my own ...still can't stop this love...
got damn...!!i can't cry...


damn feeling tired everday...
i make myself in the busy situation...
that can stop my bad mood...stop my mind...
watever it just a while...
many problem i have...damn can't accept...
i beginning..b used to alone...
shopping alone....
have a movie at cinema alone...
have a drama at home alone...
have my dinner alone...
have my breakfast alone....
that was my lif3...i gotta big different than before...


n now,just hardworking because of my family...
no time to think others...
GAMBATEH!!