random lif3''

today,i try to give xiao wen a call..
becoz...i really can't slp well...
whats wrong hurr??
keeping have this situation before i bed...==..
but...after he pick up the call...
he is working...damn dissapoint...
he is change...bcum more mature then before...

the day before yesterday...
we chat at the facebook chating room...
he still treat me so soft...
n he say he say he miss me..n call me slp early...
suddenly,i feel..he still have some feeling to me..
after few minutes..
i think..he just means he miss me this good friends only..
i think too much already...
haiz...before i promise...didn't find him...
but...he is only one that i think tell him all my mind...
i think he is kind to treat his GF...
but,his GF say...he didn't do the act that he treat me before..
i have little bit happy..
i noe i'm bad...but,this can make me feel...
i'm important in his heart before...
make me feel..i'm not the air...i'm true being...
i'm begin to b a fantastico...
sometimes,i dunno izit i'm really happy...
still can't feel the reality in my busy life...


seeing the photo come from my every franz...
their studying life pic...
capture with other new friends...
actually..i'm so scared alone...
so i keeping online and keep in touch with them...
here..no one known my feel in my deeplt heart...
so i keeping go n get some new friends..
but they all is male friends...
male is hard to know female feels...
can't telling them all my feelings...
haizzz....


izit something wrong of my mind...??
recently,i keeping go n find the reality feels..
but,i still can't get it...
all my dream ..still is a unknown...


listening the music that play at the ''takahashi''...
it remind me the day that long last with other staff...
jason ong..yin erh..ah shun..chung san..thim woh...
ting ong..karen..michalle...kathleen..edwin...mayi liew...
Ai leng...kim keya...ah wah...damn missing...
all my franz...


我真的很想回到ipoh...
那个我熟悉的地方...在这里久了...越觉得孤单...
很多人问我..are u used to be there?
i always answer ''yes/sure''..
其实我不是...我很想家...很想我的朋友...
孤单得...有时独自一人也会哭...
甚至会无缘无故的心情不好...
工作忙碌的确能够让我不去想那些以前不开心的事情...
可是,日子久了...却越觉得孤单的难受...
我很想要真心的朋友..那种单纯把我当朋友...
关心我..听我诉说...听我投诉...让我可以很开心的朋友...
但是,往往事与愿违.......


有人曾经说会等我...等我的伤痊愈...
当我打我电话给他...电话却打不通...
我担心得..天天在想...是不是...发生什么事了..
上不了网又找不到他...
等我拿到了我的电脑...第一时间上网想联络他...
可是,结果也是不一样的...看到的也是伤人的...
男人的承诺...都是泡沫...
可是,他的话我相信了...我相信他等我...
可是当我回头望他时...却是他与别人的甜蜜...
一个是将...两个是将...
男人的话真的不能信...


你是个不同的男生...
不管多少个男生追求我...
在我心里...你依然是那个100分的男友~~
加油!要幸福哦...
我得不到幸福...我希望对我那么好的你~~
能够永远幸福...


眼泪又来了...真是个爱哭鬼...!!
什么都被改变了...只有少些性格还是改不了...
看来...我需要加把劲...