i didn't understand...

i really didn't understand...
really...felt so sad in this few days...
suddenly..i be aware...i'm b alone ....
my best franz...look like begin hate me...izit i do wrong?
but..i din do anything...
think to crying...
what can i do?? should i call her??
but,she say she will busy at the monday-friday...
saturday..she need study..becoz she have a xam...
i told her gambateh...
but she didn't reply...i just ask her a ''hi''...but...din reply too...
but she have reply her college franz..
except me...
no bosom friends here...no one can let me tell my mind...
just alone...
i begin to known...at the last...i'm just alone...
i think to go a place that more far away from here...
may b my life is predestined alone always...

the someone...i think i should keep a away from him...
i should clear that,he got a GF already...
they are sweet n happiness...pls dun disturb their life...
after the monday webcam days..
i will make my promise b come true...


so faint...have a economy problem of my parents...
granpa n granma...gotta sick..
need money to process the operation...
damn!
what can i do??
my sis..need go universiti already..
ask me to sponsor the computer for her...
i'm deal ...becoz her com is here...
so she should get the new one...


what's going on ....
i really chg...everthing is chg...
i'm used to alone..?
love to talk with myself..


my aunt n her BF...always say i'm stupid...
izit i'm really just like a idiot?
i just easy n simply to doing everything...
but,it for them i'm stupid...
damn sad...sometimes..i just hide up n cry alone...
thinking about my home...
my franz...
but,everything is chg..may b...no one will rmb me...
no one will...care about me...
except my franz...
i need more caring...i dun wan alone...
i'm scared...
but.....no one known my mind...