i hated...

actually...i really love my family so much...
i just dun have showin out in front them...
but...in my deeply heart...they most important in my lif3....
i can't lost them...

today...me...uncle n my aunt go to OG shopping...
i gotta see many thing i think to buy..
but..i should b hold tight my mind...n control myself...
less to shopping...n saving the money...
they are so surprise...y i din buy anything,,,
then, i answer...i want saving the money...
they ask again...y u want saving the money...?buy what?
i say...nothing...just think to save a lot of money to my mum n dad...
they say i'm crazy already...
actully, i'm not pls...
i just dun wan telling u two most thing i know...
becoz...u two will tell others...
thats is the secret between of me n my family...

sometimes...i feel so hate them...
becoz, they are always..gv a critical opinion to my sis..
watever for the computer...the university...or about the money...
excuse me!! thats are my sis decided...
can u all stop to comment anything to her??
i felt so angry...
becoz they are nothing to know...
but, likes to talking about the fake...
what the fxxk of this??!!

they are always...think my family so rich...
actully we are not...watever..what happened in my family economy..
whos will telling it to others...
n let everybody knew it?...
OH GOD...i really going to crazy...
i'm already feel so confused of the damn thing n my future...
pls...just gv me more easy in my life okay?

yesterday...i gotta video call with my franz...
damn happy..have a nice talk with him...
long time no feel happy already...talking about the of our history...
the sad...the happy...the trouble...hahaha..
thats was our great history...but...all is pass already...
just wished he can happy n hapiness everyday...
i really dun have think to get bck him n let him come bck to me...
becoz...theres have a girl more love him than me...
i'm already trust all about it is a Providence...
after i can gotta find him n tell him i wanna be with him...
but...he chg the hp num...after that time...
i really know we are impossible already...
just wanna b a normal franz with him...
thats just enough...

now, i'll try my best of my own job...GAMbateh!!