i'm still is the js before....

yesterday,hang out with my franz...
he gotta b my second cicerone...
he always bring me go the showplace...
he is the third franz i got...
he is handsome...but...not the people that i want...
so,i just can b franz with him...
we go to the singapore ''stadium''...
before we arrived there...i really think thats just a stadium...
actually it not...
it got a big shopping centre...
it contain skating rink...cinema...karaokae...bowling alley...
i so pleasure to have a handsome franz...
hahahahaha...he is a johor guys...
he fluent in the english...and the plantar massage...
he is fall in love to me...
he say want to chase me...lol..
whats wrong with this year??
the god make me lovelorn...now?
think to replace my hurt??
ohh..pls...dun b like that...
i really only think to have more franz...
dun give more peach blossom again...
thats enough...
actually...sometimes...i still can feel that hurt...
because..wen hao is really bring me a big hurt n hatching...
scared to fall in love...
scared to hurt again...
scared the ppl that chase me...
watever we just franz...i always will keep some distance from them...
it not means i'm LC...
it just...a hurt that i always can't walk out...


just now...
while i hear the song of JJ''ji de''...
suddenly...i'm crying again...
i known i'm idiot...i'm stupid...
i always tell myself...dun think..dun mind all about him...
i so hate myself...y i always can't keep my word?
y i'm so weak...watever he treat me so bad...
in my heart...he still perfect...
watever,how i hate...how i tell everyone his bad...
but...in my mind...he still is the good person...
i'm clear..he is change...not before wen hao anymore...
not the one that i love anymore...
but when i looking theirs sweet pic...
my heart is break...hard to breathe...
tears is endless...pain......heart pain....


when i really can put down all of this damn things?
i wanna my normal life...
god...if u can here me...
can u give me the one that same like him to me?
i din care the look...the heigh...
i just wanna that feel only...
at least...i can forget him as temporary...


when i can stop my tears??
no one can help me...