this is the song that singing by me...
i try to singing the english song...because my vocal are no right..
but i try it..^^..i think it's ok what...
damn lovin it..XD...too self-loving...


argh...actually i'm upset right now...not because of man..
it's relate the future i have...now the economy of the international are no right..
izit i should  think it over and let my parents know whether he agree with me..??
i'm really worry about of their job...if i really got the opporturnity to studying..
then nobody will give them the fee of their life...
ya..i have two elder sister...but..
one of them are no money..other one are studying at the kedah...
my brother are still studying in the secondary school...
izit i should show the filial piety to my parents...??
because in this years have some problem of the finance...
the percentage of the changer money will drop...
i don't wanna make my parents be more...tired and feel burden...
actually...i think...i'm still young...i can save my money 1st...
after i got the money can cover my family..then i go realize my dream...
it's will be late..????????
have many question marks are appear in my brain...
GOD!!!!!!
jess...can u all tell me what i can do..??
i think i should find my sister to disscuss this problem...
may be she can give me the suggestion that more constructive...
but i think it's a good way...on the way that i earn the money...
i won't stop to study...may be i really!!! is ''really'' go to find some class...
improve my language...i think to speak the english as well and quite good...
i think...i can do it...
haizzzzzz....!!!!


i'm gonna go to JB in this off day...yea!!
i wanna high high high and crazy in that day!!
and go there have some new clothes/ shoes/ make up tools...^^
thx john...i will expect this day coming..^^hehe...


finally...i gotta calling my mum today...
suddenly i find that...me and my mum and dad...less topic to chat...
izit we have a long time din see...so we less topic??
oh no...i dun wanna to be like that la...=3=...
i want close with u both!!!!


suddenly damn missing my best friends...
the song she love before are remind me ...
the memory we have...whatever...happy...
sadness..funny...we both together...
but now...we are separeted...and we are different place...
but i din have forget you...how about you??
in your heart...i'm still is your best friends..??
before...whatever i crying...i happy...i also will tell u...
haizz...anything is changes...


P/S:times are prove anything...
      it can make us to forget something and make us change...

oh yea!!❤

today i gotta give my mama a call...

everytime she picking up the phone...listen my voice...

then she will know thats me...hahaha...damn pro..

so happy to chating with her...

i got a news from her..

thats is...my daddy asking her...

why daughter like to calling you?? din calling me one??

mama say:cehh...u also can picking up my handphone too mah...

baba say:yerr...but i don't know how to communicate with daughter as well..

i suddenly feel so warm and regret...

regret i din have give my dear baba a call during his birthday...

dad...sorry...

but...i won't forget it...just i'm really too busy for the work...

i hope you will forgive me yup...

but i really love you so much...^^

i got a nice mood in this few days...keep happy...

i wish i can b like this at the futurity...

everybody say...i just look like no annoyance one...stay happy everyday..

and asking me how can do like this...

but...=3=..this one no  recipe one...only force myself to happy everyday...

sometimes,i like to have some mini games while i'm online...

it can make me be more relax...and..it can train my brain running too..

 for each other..may be it not a good skill ...
but for me...it's work..

at the same times...i also like to listen some E-POP...

really love music too much...just feel..i can't without it...

if not..my life will be more boring than now...==...

planning go to the johor bahru with john...

but...still don't know he can get the leave or not..@.@

i hope he can be...because..i think go to have some delicious food from there..

the local cuisine by malaysia ...such as>>laksa...satay...roti canai...bee hoon..@.@

damn missing it...watever that just the normal thing at the M'sia...

long time din contact with my dearest secondary schoolmate...

i missing u all...but...may be some of you already forget me...

it's ok...i remember you then ok jorr...

i know u are busy around there...so...take care urself...

anything just b take it easy...dun be so nervous..

if u got a exam soon..then i wish u will through it all..

if u busy for ur own job...i wish u can be sucess at anything has happen..

whatever...GOOD LUCK YEA!!

why this world got many beauty one..??=3=...

all beauty than me...all mature than me...

all got many facebooker to like their own comment...

but me...==...just few ppl to like my link..my post..

damn sad what...hey.. dun be like that la...

like mine too la..==..

recently damn loving the namewee song...

but..==..he really so ''lan c''...i asking him ...how i can get his song only..

he delete my post..lol...
but..it's ok lorr...i will got it by myself..==

i used to be alone right now...having dinner...having breakfast..

all by alone...think to sing the song from S.H.E-only lonely ...

hahaha...haiz...

i'm gonna be crazy...sometimes..i also don't know..

what  i thinkin about...so curious..@.@

recently...feeling damn boring for my fxxker life..!!
what the fxxk ..man!!=3=...
i dun want this kind of life...help pls...
damn no meaningful... feeling no reality...
just like a dream....@.@
god....!!!! 
so...now...i think to get a iphone 4...
may be it's too late...but...i think it's ok what...
still got many ppl use it...but the iphone 5 is coming soon...@.@
iphone 4 will be outdate soon...T^T...
but i just can get it when it b cheaper worr...
haizzz....what i should do yup..@.@buy which???


already few days din gv my parents a call...
izit they are worry me..??suddenly think to know ..
the place i have in their heart...
mama...baba...i miss you right now...
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mama...i miss the vege u cook...
baba...i miss the word u scold me...
mama...i miss the screen that i have the lunch with u after school...
baba...i miss the look that u drinking beer...
mama...i miss the face when u slping...
baba...i miss ur laugh when u  are kidding with us...
dad...mum...i really ♥  u all so much...are u feel it..??
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everyday keep count down the date i left ..
everyone asking me...izit go travel during the CNY...
and i just keeping answer...''i wanna go home..!!''
they say why...i say no why...
no reason...just i think to back home...
my warmth house...more 3 months from now...!!
not too long what...i will be back soon...wakaka...XD
everytime when i'm imagine the screen that i gotta back home...
i also will feeling damn happy...because...
i can meet up my franz...secondary school friends...
my takahashi dearest friends....makzzz..!!


i already confirm the way i should take for my future...
can take some rest now...hohoho...
so why i feel damn boring recently...just because..
i'm nothing to do...and nothing at all...so..=3=...
i gotta go picnic with william this sunday afternoon...oh yea!
ths william so much and much...he always cheer me up...
and gv the opinion that most reality...and gv me some good idea...
he is good good man...so...
i wished you can get a GF that really love you from the heart ya...
and thank you...because you always bring me out and have some fun..
thanks a lot...william...^^


i always tell myself...love is not important...
no love in your life...then just try to make yourself b more good..
the one that u love u can't get it...then just try to let him get his happiness..
may be it won't be easy...but...just try your hard...
anthing just let it autogeny...take it easy...
if that girl can give him the happiness he want...
if that girl can make him be happy...
if that girl lost can make him confuse and sadness...
why i din let him get all he want...
Js...be easy guys...if u love him...just let it go...pls...


P/S: never love...never know the hurt...
       after you got to see he together with others girls...
       then you can get that feel right now...

是不是每一个人一踏出这个社会...
回头一看时,才发现...自己的朋友其实不多...
可以说真心的朋友寥寥无几...
少得十个手指都能数得完...
可是没有想到就连我原本认为的知心朋友也是一样...
最近的照片很成熟...我知道...
可是...却被XX说我像阿婶...我的照片是记录我生活的代表...
从一个小孩子模样...变得现在这样...
我只是成熟了...我不想再象以前一样...白痴无聊...
我并不是说我自己很好看..很漂亮...
只是我希望可以成熟点...不想死板板的...我想改变我的生活...


对我来说...你们都比我幸运...顺利的能做自己想做的事情...
念书的念书...学美容的学美容...工作的工作...
你们每一个身边有伴...有同学...有男友...有宿舍的舍友...
其实你们都比我幸福...你们说经济有问题...
但,你们都有父母在支撑...
可我何尝不是..???但,不一样的是...
一切都是我独自一个的...一直这样坚持下去.....
人们总认为我赚很多钱...
其实...那只是表面上而已...并不是实际上...


那天和阿杰妈妈见面了...突然觉得我和他很像...
失恋了...假装着快乐...勉强将笑容挂在脸上...
我们俩依然等待着那个不可能的奇迹...
但是,我不想放太多的期待下去...否则我会不舍得放开...
时间是最好的医生...我相信...它可以冲谈这一切的...
现在的我...选择就这样让我的爱情颓废着...
选择暗恋那个不可能的人....不管是对是错...就是想这么做...
也许有一天...
我也可以像小文一样放开一切...接受更好的...
也许有一天...
我也可以像他一样不再对那个曾经深爱的人的状态事与物那么的在乎...
也许有一天....
我也可以放开一切去寻找真正属于我的Mr.right...


一波未平一波又起...
听闻最近金融风暴开始卷席从来了...担心...
担心父母没有工作做...而我又选择读书...那样...
他们靠谁呢???超级担心...
天啊!!!这也是一种考验吗???!!!
我的妈啊...很想去放松放松...脑袋都被绷紧了...@.@
打算去海边....找埋威廉一起去...多个伴 ..没那么无聊...
谁知他很乐意...随口就答应了...XD...超级感谢...^^


慢慢的觉得...自己的朋友真的并没有很多...
可是...我想交更多的朋友...
其实我的人不难相处而已阿...为什么...
'就是没有同性的朋友要当我朋友...
今年的同性缘真的那么的淡..??@.@...lol...不要将嘛...


今天在网上看见一张令我很震撼的照片...
一张非洲小孩的照片...

♥.


知福 惜福 造福........回省自己 .

日前，在世界攝影比賽上獨獲金獎的單幅照片《非洲兒童》，讓全世界60億人落淚了

這個身上爬滿蚊蟲、蒼蠅的非洲小男孩的照片，給所有讀者的心靈以
最強烈的震撼。


　　圖片上的每個元素都讓人呼吸停止、心跳變慢：這世界上真有這樣的地方嗎？真有這樣的兒童嗎?

　　從瘦得可以清晰地數出他肋骨的兒童身上，我們看見了處在那片貧瘠土地上的兒童的悲慘的命運。他們沒有網絡遊戲，沒有KFC、MDL，沒有玩具，沒有夥伴，甚至沒有可以果腹的食品。
　　為什麼小男孩身上會爬滿了蚊蟲及蒼蠅？是因為飢餓已經讓他沒有力氣來揮手驅趕這些昆蟲，還是因為他早已經喪失了驅趕這些昆蟲的願望？也許，這些就是日日陪伴他度過沒有天真與撒嬌的童年的夥伴。他已經習慣了它們的存在。

　　小男孩的家人呢？圖片右上角，一個同樣骨瘦如柴的成年人一邊朝著小男孩這邊張望，一邊忙著手裡的活計。我們或許可以判斷，這個成年人肩 負著照顧小男孩的偉大任務，但因為他自己要忙著多幹點活，多掙點錢來養活全家，也許他就是這個小男孩的哥哥，也許他就是這個小男孩的爸爸，對於兒童身上的 東西，他也已經習慣了。
　　左上角的白色棚子，也許就是小男孩的家，看得出來，是由廢棄不用的材料搭建而成。遠方，同樣沒有什麼建築物，只有一個茅草做成的房屋孤零零的立在曠野中。

　　我們的心都在流淚。震撼之餘，也許我們每個人又產生了一種慶幸：比起他，我們可是天堂般的生活！而在慶幸之餘，我們還是覺得，有一種隱痛和不甘，其實就在我們心底。♥.


看了这个照片和文章...觉得心里酸了一下...
觉得他们很可怜...与我们相比...真的...我们幸福很多很多...
我们有舒适的房间...有温饱的环境...
然而他们呢..??
谁能给与他们100分的帮助呢...??
看了这个...我更有那个决心想当护士...我希望...上天可以给我一个机会...
这是我的梦想...我想完成它...!!


P/S:人类老是身在福中不惜福...老是等某些人事物错过了...才懂得珍惜...
       我们必须改变这个态度..把每天当作是自己的最后一天去过...
        那样你才能发现你身边的人...是那么的珍贵...

平凡的一天...

就这样...这一天又过去了...

纳闷...无奈...沉默的一天...

以前的我...总喜欢什么事情都笑一大顿...

什么事情都把它当大事一样告诉我身边的每个朋友...

超级八卦...爱说话且乐观的小女生...

可是...现在才发现...钟彩琼这个人真的变得很多很多...

变得很沉默...很消极...我到底从什么时候变这样了..??

自从失恋那天起..??

自从我来到新加坡那天起..??

自从我感受到这社会的恐怖以后...??

我超级不喜欢现在这个我...很不喜欢...

经常感到孤独...不管我这一刻我是不是认识到新朋友....

就是有这种感觉...我真的快又精神病了...

因为没有人和我说话...没有人愿意倾听我的心事...

慢慢的...喜欢把事情往心里面摆...

不是我不想告诉别人...而是...身边没有值得信任的人...

妈妈咪啊~~~神啊~~~救救我这可怜人吧~~

样子坚强...其实,我害怕孤独...

这个社会很恐怖...我很想找个角落躲起来...

很想回家...可是,我怕回到ipoh...又会想起之前不开心的事...

很辛苦哦....

很想找个人来谈谈恋爱...让自己分分心...可是...

没有一个合适的...够力...

可是...这样做好吗???那样伤害别人...好吗??

我怕到头来伤害别人也欺骗自己...到最后...

也依然深深的爱着那混蛋...该如何是好...??

每次...是几乎每一次!!!

我下定决心的把他从我的世界delete掉...

他却在我的面子书出现了他的头像..仿佛在提醒我一样...

TMD!!!有某搞错啊!!!玩野啊!!><

毫不容易鼓起勇气去忘记...却偏偏不断的提醒着我...

他在我心底的重要性...

如果真的有缘可不可以让我们再一次的在一起...

我是这样奢望着...可是明知道不可能...

却天天得这样妄想着...心想...他回去taka做...

会不会想起我与他在那里的一些回忆...一点点也好...

很想问...他到底有没有爱过我...可是...事情过去了...

再问...还有意思..??

我多么希望...我的世界像漫画的童话故事一样完美...

即使不完美...也让作家在我的故事里画几个贵人进去嘛...

搞到我的生活现在是如此的乏味...@.@

现在连我自己也不清楚...

到底我的性格是怎样...@.@

我很怕让别人讨厌我...所以为免说错话...所以大多数...

我都选择沉默代表一切...开始习惯了...

我的怪生活...很想认识再多一点点地朋友咯...

可是....haizzz....一言难尽啊 !!!!

P/S:再困难的生活也要过...钟彩琼...要加油哦!!

这令我超级怀念!!!>>>

1st time 觉得...心里那么的舒服...

什么原因呢??

今天off day见到william真人了...

挺帅的...哈哈哈..只是没有175cm而已...

〉〉〉〉

左边第二个就是了...

还被他笑我...的高度!!@.@...lol...我一出生就注定是这种高度的咯...

不行么...??=3=...

超级谢谢这位大恩人~~~给了我很多很有用的意见...

解开了我心里的结...很多想不通的问题...

因为它的话...我的头脑开通了...

我一直说害怕申请不到学校...

威廉告诉我说...不要那么消极一定会有好消息的...

要相信自己才行啊...如果真的申请不到..

也不能放弃...俗语说''东家不打就打西家咯''...

而我...''东校不收就申请西校''咯...要给自己铺铺后路才行...

人不能只有一个梦想...即使直走的路前面有块大石头...

也不要放弃...绕路走就行了...一定可以达到你的终点(梦想)...

我很欣赏他咯...有那么灵活的头脑...

一口流利的英文...真想叫他当老师..可是他工作超级忙...

那样麻烦人好像很不好咯...@.@

haizz...我也得好好的想象我的计划该如何进行好...

thq la...今天给了我很多有用的意见...

学你说...别人说的意见听听就算...也不要听别人批评自己什么..

做自己喜欢的就好了...谢谢你我的大恩人!!! william demon!!!XD...

也感谢感谢你带我去吃我很想试却未吃过的东西...SUBWAY...

turkey and ham set...damn delicious..yummy yummy..hehe...

 bread:>>honey Oat...有点甜甜的面包...蔬菜...酱汁任你选...
            真的爽呆了...yoohoo...^^

才发现...我也有开心的一天...

事业上的结是松开了...but...在爱情上...

依然还没解决...其实...我不懂自己在执著什么...

在愁什么...明明知道我怎么愁...怎么期待...结果依然不会变...

人没了就是没了..回忆变成了垃圾...但我依然等待些什么..??

奇迹..??他那样对待你...你依然为了他期待奇迹吗??

钟彩琼!!你是发疯了吗..??没了他=活不了..??

他的事你管部着也没资格去管..听见没有!!??

说过那么多次放弃..想通...到后来呢??整个脑袋都是他!!

what the fuck of this!!简直自相矛盾!!

现在不准你再强迫自己做不到的事...一切过去...顺其自然就好!!

this is an order!!

今天也和我家大姐在facebook聊天来...

其实...她也不是很讨人厌而已...

站在她的角度去看...其实..有时候她也很难做人...

体谅..包容...才是家人该做的事情...

姐...我知道你有自己的梦想...自己的想法...

watever最后结果如何...我都给与你无限的support...

GAMBATEH!!!

我需要从新规划自己的未来...

当然..读护士当然不会改变这是我的梦想...

要如何改变自己的经济状况...

要规划的是...我的后路...加油钟彩琼!!!

P/S:每个人不能单单盲目的往梦想走去...如果通往梦想的那条路有阻扰..

       也必须为自己寻找另一条通往梦想路....加油!!

beginning feel到...自己是那么的烦人...给别人带来那么多的麻烦...
而自己却不知被身边的人讨厌着...
因为不是一家人...??所以被排斥...
很辛苦...何时...能够离开...
难道这世界真的没有可以容纳我的地方吗??
我很瘦而已窝...==!!!!


今天和妈妈聊天了...感觉自己很不孝...
在他们经济不好的时刻...选择读书...
对不起...可是..这是我的梦想...我的决定...
我希望你们会体谅我...对不起让你们少了一份家用...
大姐姐赚不多给不了你多少...二姐和弟弟都念书...已经是个困难了...
我现在还选择读书...当护士...
说真的..我也不懂自己能不能...我自己也怀疑自己的能力...
可是..我知道..不尝试过永远不会懂得...能不能胜任还是个未知数...
但,我想try my best to make it b wonderful...
我很不想放弃...可是爸爸妈妈老了...我真的那么的忍心吗...??
我现在赚得也不算多...能支持他们的经济多久..??
我真的...很难受...不懂怎么做好...
很想两全其美...可是...没有一件事情会那么的完美的...
我该怎么做好...??坚持读书...还是赚钱养家...??


我很讨厌被人小看..被人说我笨...的那种feel...
真的很讨厌...我很想证明自己的能力...
很想证明我并不笨...之前不念书..只是找不到自己的兴趣...
不懂学什么读什么好...当我想好了我想读的想做的...
却往往遇到那么的问题....上天真的是那么的不公平的吗..??
虽然如此..但..我依然会有奇迹的存在...
依然相信会有某个奇迹发生在我身上...只是不懂什么时候...
我奢望...自己的生活里什么困难都没有...
我只希望有人赐我一个用不疲倦...不言累...和勇敢的心...
可以让我有勇气继续坚持下去...


爸爸妈妈...对不起...
原谅我的不孝...我不是故意的...
其实...即使这次学校不收我...我也会工作多一年..过后就会...
去申请私人的...我不懂这样做我会不后悔...
可是...我相信自己做的没有错...
我想当护士的原因...除了可以帮人...
还可以让我的家人生活好些...陪他们的时间也比较多...
我真的很希望很希望自己被录取....


P/S:希望上天会可怜我.这个可怜人吧...我只想要充实的生活..

     

人类都是虚假的动物....
活在世上的人类...全都是虚伪的...
在别人的面前装作一副善良的样子...
在别人面前装作一副很懂的样子...
在别人面前装作一副不说别人是非的样子....
其实一切只是幻觉...


表面善良...暗地里对着别人说着你的坏话...数落着你的不是...
包括亲戚....不是说是亲人就不会那样对待你...
在你面前一副什么都懂的样子...其实他们自己也会出差错...
却不曾责骂自己...你只是一件小事出了小小的差错...
就说你笨过一头牛....
在你面前扮演好好先生小姐的角色...可是..经常在背后...
对外人说着你的不是...数落你的愚蠢....


我很想自己从来没有变过...依然那么的单纯...
依然那样每天笑笑就过一天的我....
可是...直到失恋以后...我遭到的事情...几乎没有一件是好的...
天啊...可以赐我那一丁点的勇气去面对着一切吗..??
我真的觉得自己快不行了...我的韧行...快用尽了...
我心里承受着很大的压力.....很痛苦....
就不能让我快乐一些吗...???


我答应了我的朋友要开心...刚开始...
我以为我做到了...可是不久后...又变得孤独...孤单...经常会感到失落...
我很想哭...却再也哭不出来了...我习惯沉默...习惯去到哪个角落...
也是我独自一个人...这是成长的必经之路??
很想有个人来cheer up我...可是..这世上除了家人...
根本没有人会愿意那样做...


baocai成绩不好...一科failed了...我很想帮她...
我自己也有存到钱...可是...其实我很怕 妈妈骂...说我笨...
而且我也要去申请那个学校...生活也要钱啊....
很难cover到...可是朋友有难不能不帮...我建议只帮她三个月...
如果这次重考成功了...接下来的费用自己搞定...
如果失败了...就努力工作来换钱...我相信她不会骗我...
她对我而言很重要...我不想她就这样放弃了自己想作的事情...
我怕她会后悔...就像我一样...
希望上天感受得到你的诚意....!!


爸爸妈妈开始工作了...应该很辛苦吧...
累到一回家...吃完饭看看电视就睡着了...
其实我很心疼他们...我很想...继续努力去养他们...
可是我更明白...如果我这次成功进了那学校...
我得到的东西是双倍的...读完以后薪水好福利多...工作时间规律...
也会交到朋友...工作更有意义...如果我真的进得了...我会尽我的努力去读好...
不会枉费了你们的一番心意...


小文说得对...我这副年纪应该念书...
我受够了被人小看的眼光...被人带着有色眼镜看我这个十八岁的女生...
觉得我不行...我之前上会计课都是用计算器去计算的...
一个题目十多千...难道用脑袋去算??TMD...
我们年轻的都习惯运用计算器的好不好..!!??
不然你试试跟我比比看用计算器看谁会错!!??
经常说我笨...i fxxk off..!!shut up your mouth!! idiot!!!
你根本没资格说我!!!我沉默你说我发神经!!
我笑笑你说我不正经!!我动作快些你说我紧张!!
我动作慢些你说我睡不醒!!
我跟客户说几句话你就说我是不是不想放工还在那边聊天!!
卖价的时候你去跟朋友聊一个小时才回来那就叫做勤力!!??
我这叫笨??对!!我是笨..笨在惠来到这里打工..!!
不是看在我们是@#%和钱的份上早就不干了!!
说我有忧郁症..!!对阿...我有忧郁症也是你们逼的...!!
对我只有不断再不断的批评!!!我干的好的时候又见你们赞过我吗??


我受够了!!!!!我决定回家不干的这个决定是对的!!!我不会后悔!!


P/S:人生有多少个十年...世界末日真的来临了吗??
       可是能不能给我一些机会去让我活得有意思??

Today is a BAD DAY…

Think to gv my mummy a call…but…

Because the car are spoil…then we go take car today…

But we  late…so can’t gv mummy a call…damn disappoint…haiz….

Damn tired….not tired on the body…is my heart…

Feel too tired…think to have a rest…but…where I can go..??

No franz…no family here…

who can let me pour out one's own bitterness…and my heart bare…

god….!!!who can rescue me..??

damn feeling  I’m in a maze..

can’t get the dream I have..can’t find the way out…

I’m just simple…just think to make my life be more meaningful…

Just think to find the reason that I’m being here…

I got a bad news today..make me sudden moody…can’t laugh…

What the bad damn things keeping happen to me…

Before I coming SG…I think…I still have many franz will remember the Jschoong..

but..finally…

Just only few of them…will contact me…will chat with me…

Will console me…but now…what I have now???

I have nothing….!!

Baocai>>>keeping busy for her homework before…now..she finish her final exam…But…one subject is fail…I dun wan she gv  up…the problem of money…I can gv her some help…I din care about the money…but…except it…I dunno what I can do for her…damn feeling sorry…(make me feel moody and worries…)

Kim keya>>>she also in some problem of her study life…keep repel by gals…whatever which corner she reach…also encounter the same problem…but I’m be incapable of telling something like console...so only tell her…I will always right beside her…(make me feel sorry for her…)

Yuen ling>>>break with john..but got a new lover again…it’s damn unbelievable…I also think they will be together whole life…but…haiz….just can say…人是善变的….(disappoint…)

Fong yee>>>she nothing to change…but…just because she never change…I got it…how childish we have before…she was good in everything…nothing to let me worry about her…

Wzaii>>>he is the someone...i so care…I always think…he was my best fran in life…but the conclusion it just same…lost contact…and din pay any attention for me anymore…just review the msg we have before…crying…原本最关心我的人也消失了…(disappoint…)

After all of this…I finally know that…family is most good one…won’t leave me…won’t  ignore me…ofcause…everyone also have something to do in their life…they won’t because of u and stop the get something they wanted…who are you??

I really feel so hurt of all kind of this damn thing…

I just think to have my friends…I just think to keep in touch with them…

But all of them…beginning no care of me anymore…

WHO U ARE JSCHOONG!!??

WHO WILL REMEMBER YOU!!IDIOT!!DUN BE FOOL OKAY??

JUST BE YOURSELF…IN THIS WORLD…LOST YOU!!

ALSO NOTHING IS CHANGE!!! FXXK YOU BITCH!!!

DUN THINK TOO MUCH!!!JUST BE YOURSELF..!!

U DAMN CARE ABOUT THEY ALL!!WHO CARE ABOUT YOU!!!

NO ONE WILL CARE ABOUT YOU!!!!! NO ONE!!!

P/S:the earth will not stoping to rotated just because of you…the thing we can do is…learn to used to be alone here…

feel tired on this few days...
haizzz....izit anybody also live like this damn boring..??
nothing special in the life...
got damn la..==...
izit we can do something thats more meaningful...??
no calling my mum today...damn feel sienz...zzzZZ...
i got a nitemare last night...
he was appear in my dream...so...
thats why i say this is a nightmare...in the dream...
i'm keep chasing him...and i scream out his name...
but...he just like hear nothing...keeping running...
izit this dream is the world of my deeply heart..??


i'm really is a loser in the love...
he was the shadow in my life...
i always telling myself...thats the pass...just let it go...
whatever it's how hard...i hope i can do it...
baocai told me...no need effort to forget...
because..forget is no need effort...
but,she dunno...it's really too hard...damn hard..
he was my beloved in my life...


some one are asking me...
i keeping waiting him ...izit...worth...
actually not worth...but...feeling is can't change one...
this is the way i choose...
i know..in this whole world have more better man...
or Mr.right...but thats won't be mine...
may be have a one day...he will know my heart...
whatever they are say i'm fool...i uphold my choosing...


i can feel it...the all 5R franz are change...
mature..?? special..?? clever...??
i dunno how to explain the feel...
may be...after this half years..we all facing the different situation...
different problem in the life...
so it make us change...we all become...anything just hiding up...
anything just put in the heart...
endure all the pressure in society...
but...i think to tell them...we should b tough...
is our motto...whatever how tired...
how moody...how emo...but...we must remember how to smiling...:)


i will strenght in my dream!!!
i will realize it...guys...i hope u all won't gv up ur dream too..!!
GAMbat3h together!!


P/S:now i only got that..the society can make ppl change...
      some can b tough...some may be weak..keep in moody...
     so...we should be more stronger than others...