今天...天气晴朗...没什么不同...
唯一不同的是...
不知不觉中...在这SHENG SIONG 工作都有一个星期了...
忙碌的生活...让我不知道时间是怎么流失...
在这里...习惯了自己一个人...
不过幸好有我二姨..她真的帮我好多...
还有我舅舅...只要有麻烦...
他们都会帮我...谢谢哦...:)...
有你们这样的亲戚真好...

前天才打给妈妈...想起上个礼拜才为了她走了..
哭得那么惨...打回去...竟然是觉得开心..XD...
想打给爸爸的...可惜他在睡觉...因为是礼拜天嘛...
所以...
都没有聊到...我老妈老爸很奇怪...
我打回去又说''干吗啊'',
一两个礼拜答打一次就说干吗这么久没有打回来...
真不知道说他们可爱还是奇怪...==...

开始觉得在这里的生活...
越来越真实了...越来越适应这里的生活...
是好的开始吧...英文也比之前流畅多了...
也许是回到这里来的关系吧...
因为在马来西亚...大多数人都说马来文...
你跟他说英文...反而被SHOT...
期盼下个月的来临...那么就不用那么闷...
而且有个人陪了...
每天一半的时间都拿去工作了...
所以每天回到家都十一点多...
吃得东西来...都十二点多了...所以...才觉得时间过的很快...
在这里学不了什么东西...
我是打算做两年后...熟悉了这里的一切以后...
再转工...不过一切要在安排...
毕竟...计划赶不上变化...

*其实我什么都不怕...只怕想家

来到新加坡的第三天

算是幸运么? 我找到工作了…价钱也不错…

我会努力的去把工作做好…

这一次的状况不同…不可以好像以前那样…

来到这里的第一天…我哭了…为什么..??

因为我害怕了…我感觉好像只剩下自己…

对自己没有信心…觉得应征的工作一定不行…

而且那时侯住舅舅那里…妈妈要搬去阿姨那里…

我知道那样会很糗…可就是…无论多努力去忍住不让泪水掉下…

可眼泪还是不听的流…

阿姨会带他们去逛逛….

我以为妈妈走了…剩下我一个了…

妈妈还问我说…要不要和她回…害怕的话就不要做了…

有点感动…不过还是摇摇头…

因为就这样回去会被人笑的…我想自己至少还拥有那一点点的坚持…

我知道我必须努力…勇敢…我不介意自己多 辛苦…

但我要我的爸妈有好生活…

我不会想自己会不会交到朋友…即使有..那也只会是普通的同事…

我只想赚我的钱….

曾经有人问我…我的志愿是做什么…

我答不出来…因为我也不知道…

我不知道自己的志愿是什么…因为我不相信自己的志愿能够实现..

曾经一度想当护士…直到今天…我依然想当护士…

其实只怪自己当时不好好念书…现在后悔…太迟了…

我不相信能够跟着自己的兴趣去工作…

因为人没有十全十美的…何况是梦想…

现在我没有任何牵挂…只是担心阿杰找工作的事情…

还有找房间的问题…真希望那个屋主开的价不会很高…

希望一切都顺顺利利…那么我就可以去酬神了…

其实我也不知道要找什么工作给他…

因为始终需要他本人出来interview才可以…

不过,既来之,则安之….

来到这里…最失望的事…莫过于我大姨说过的话…

她害怕我这一次来…是为了…要帮长城粥品那里去当cashier…

更希望我不会去找她…其实她的目的就是…

不想有话柄落在别人的嘴巴里…

我想说….很对不起…自从那天你赶我走的时候…

我已经很失望…也发誓过不会再去找你了…

别以为有钱就了不起…也请你不要以为每个人来新加坡…

只为了沾你的光….我也不会去找你…可以的话…我愿一辈子也看不见你…

看到你只会让我想起之前的事情…

不是每个人都贪你的钱…

我妈妈也不会用你一分一毫…!!!!!

请给我记住!!!!

我有骨气…不是会念书就会发达…

不是只有会念书的人才有前途…

我会证明这一切!!!!

各位亲爱的朋友...希望有来浏览的你都应该知道...
你的friend我又要出新加坡了...:)
已经买了礼拜三的车票了...
虽然有很多事情都好不舍得...我的家人..男朋友...
可是...要赚钱...先得付出我拥有的...
这里的薪水...的确比我想像的还要低...
以前受够委屈...有苦说不出...
心里想着...回家就好...可是回来了...却发现这里的薪水比新加坡低很多...
真的不够我用...如果  以之前的薪水来说的话...
根本实现不了...我要给爸妈的生活...
所以...这次出去...真的要靠自己的力量去生活了...
为自己加油...!!! :)


谢谢某些朋友...知道我要出新加坡了...
特地约我出去...
好让我知道...我还有一点点的人缘...
而不至于我自己想像的那么差...
谢谢你们...:)...
我也很明白...每个人出社会了,...
自然而然的随着这现实的社会而变了...
变得不像我们彼此认识的对方...哈哈...有时候也觉得很有趣...
以前和自己关系超要好的...现在却变的和陌生人没有分别...
然而以前没有经常坐一起三八的...
却是现在....当中关系ok的那种...
其实我很羡慕别人...羡慕别人的友谊...
不管多少年过去...关系依旧...
然而我的人缘....一天比一天的差...
也许有时候...我会不经意的说错话...
可是我也是不小心的....如果真的得罪了...
请多多包涵...


我自己也逐渐变奇怪了...
心里有种忧虑...紧张...担心...
我也不懂在担心什么...紧张什么...
有一种莫名的压力...好想爆发出来...
因为一直这样压在心里...很难受...
有时候,我也渴望自己的男朋友能为自己安排好一切...
不用自己去操心...去规划...
其实,一个月的时间真的不够...一个月的时间让我去赚钱...
租房....搬家...以一个女生的能力...
有时候,我真的很想和你说...
能不能想一想我的感受...我知道你挂住我...
可是我的能力也是一个问题啊...
多希望我们倒反来...你自己出去一个月规划...安排..赚钱...
不要每次都说你会改...改不是嘴巴说的...
是用行动来证明的...我不认为你没用...
我不认为你没有才能...因为我支持你..相信你...
然而你给于我的支持...鼓励在哪里..??
我承认...我并不聪明...可是我不是笨蛋...
我知道我们之间欠缺的是什么...是鼓励...信任...和安全感...
我知道...你是有主见的...只是一和我一起...
你就什么都依我...什么都我说了算...
有时候我也想听听你的意见啊...


姐姐快要结婚...老实说...我真的还没想到送她什么好...
怎么说也是我第一次嫁老姐...想送写实际而且有用的...
可是除了现金以外...我暂时想不到其他的...
真头痛啊....

这个星期...是我最头痛最压力的 一个星期...

最近老是有很多的意外的状况发生...
最近到底犯谁了?? 看来我必须去打打小人才对...
什么叫做把公司当做第二个家??
我很想告诉你...很抱歉...我的家只有一个...
而且我从来没有当那里是我的家...
因为我的家人没有你们的嘴巴那么坏...
没有你门的心那么狭窄...一点点小事...
都要搞到很大件事将...我不是那个始作俑者...
我不是故事的起端...只是普通的一件事情...
你要我辞职直说就可以了....不用绕那么多个圈来shoot我...
我自己的能力有多少我自己知道...
我知道...也明白你是我的上司...所以我会给你几分尊重...
可是,你竟然这样来维护你自己的朋友...
我可以说...打从我进来的那一天我就开始计划...什么时候走...
亏我还想到你对我还不错...不要对你作得那么的绝..
结果??....
我知道你有个朋友的女儿要进来工作...
可是首先必须有个人先辞职...
可是,也用不着拿我开刀...
我自问....我努力的更改自己的错误...
无论是大小的事务...我都有尽我自己的力量...
偶尔的疏忽是我的错...可是至少我曾经努力过...
我从来没有想过要争什么...什么职位...什么权利...
我一点也没想过...我受够了...只要找到机会...我会向你辞职..
这样下去...我心力会变少...

至于下一步该如何去走我会再planning...
妈妈说....出新加坡...爸爸说...出新加坡...
新加坡.....的确是个赚钱的好地方...
翌年内...我也存了不少...可是,我走了的话...
他怎么办?? 这就是我的顾虑...
我走了....谁会给于他无限的支持??
妈妈说了一句让我很想哭的话...
她说太粘家根本独立不了...可惜....我爱家也错了吗??
当我真的不粘家了....你不担心吗??
我知道自己总爱粘着妈妈....可是...那都是因为我放不下你们啊...
唉...钟彩琼啊..钟彩琼.....你到底想怎样...??

如今想找个适合的朋友聊聊....却发现...
我的朋友真的不多...连我认为...最要好的朋友..
也好像不太想和我联络...难道当年那些友谊嗾使假的吗??
有些事...不是不想说...是因为不懂从何说起...
有些事....不想解释...因为我也不懂自己想怎么样...
有些事...很想说...很想发泄...却不懂和谁倾诉....
有些事...明明已经计划好了...却出现了许多意料不到的意外...
难道人生就是这样那个?? 一定要遇到这么多的挫折才算精彩??

后悔选择了爱情...如果如今还是单身...
就不会有那么的忧虑了....

THERE HAVE A LONG TIME ...I DIN COMING BACK TO UPDATE MY STATUS...

HAVE MANY ELSE HAPPENED...

SAD....HAPPY....

FROM THE DATE THAT GOING TO TELUK BATIK....

MY DEAREST FRIENDS....BAO CAIII....

SHE....SUCH STRANGERS FOR ME...

I DUNNO HOW TO EXPLAINE WHAT IS HAPPENING...

BECAUSE....I ALSO DUNNO...WHAT I DID SHE  BE UNHAPPY....

I CAN'T LOST HER....SHE IS MY BEST FRINEDS IN MY WORLD...

I DON'T WANT OUR RELATION....SUCH LIKE A STRANGERS...

LIKE WE DIN KNOW EACH OHTHER...

I DON'T WANT BECOME LIKE THAT...

IF YOU(BAO CAI) GOT MY POST HERE...

I HOPE U CAN UNDERSTAND ME...

ACTUALLY...WHATEVER...I'M ALREADY HAVE A COUPLE...

IT'S DOESN'T MATTER WHAT...WE STILL IS FRIENDS...

AND I'M JEALOUS....JEALOUS YOU ARE SO HAPPY AT YOUR SCHOOL...

JEALOUS U GOT MANY FRIENDS THERE...

JEALOUS....THE CLASSMATE THAT ALWAYS BESIDE YOU...

MAY BE..YOU CAN SAY....YOU CAN FEEL...I'M CHILDISH...

BUT....I JUST WANT LET YOU KNOW THAT...I  IMPORTANCE YOU...

THAT'S IT...BUT YOU MAKE ME SO SAD...

EVERYTIME I DATE YOU OUT....YOU REJECT ME...

WHEN SOMEBODY DATE...YOU JUST APPROVED...

AND THEN....ACTUALLY...

I THINK TO RESIGN MY JOB DURING THE JULY...

I THINK GOING TO THE GENTING LOOKING FOR ANOTHER JOB...

BUT...

IT'S NOT EASY...

MY MUM SAY....YOU ARE GOOD HERE...

WHY YOU STILL WANT TO CHANGE ANOTHER JOB...

IN THE IPOH ...THE SALARY MUST BE LIKE THIS....

THE MOST....ONLY 1000$ FOR THE NO ANY EXPERIENCE...

 IF NOW....YOU RESIGN...YOU CAN GET THIS JOB AGAIN...

IZIT RIGHT??

ANYONE CAN GIVE ME SOME OPINION...

I JUST WANT TO GET MORE MONEY...

IF ONLY 1000$ I CAN'T COVER ANYTHING...==...

BUT I ALSO DUNNO WHAT I ACTUALLY WANT...HAIZZZZ...FXXK OFFF...!!!

AND RECENTLY...THE THING THAT ONLY MAKE ME HAPPY ...

THAT IS...I GOT YOU...XD...

WHATEVER YOU HAVE A BIG BELLY...

WHATEVER YOU NOT HANDSOME THAN OTHER GUYS...

IT'S OK....JUST THE REASON THAT I LOVE YOU...

THAT'S ENOUGH..:)...HOPE WE CAN TOGETHER THROUGH ANY...

TROUBLE...HAPPY...SADNESS...:)...

THQ VERY MUCH..MY MR. KANG...

i was going to the teluk batik during the 1st May...
and i was felt so excited for it...
it was the most funny journey in this year ...:)
i'm already expect going to the real beach have a long time..
i love you all my friends...and thx MR.FOO and Ms.RIDY...
thx you two always won't forget date me out...
both of you are the best..hahaha..

i gotta feel useless in front my mum...

After i'm back from the singapore..

i'm be happy...she be worry...

haizzzz...actually i really din like the SG...

what ever they are excited when talking about the Singapore...

I'm not intrested for it at all...

i try my hard to make my job be wonderful...

but, sometimes...i keep to omit some ''important'' things...

such like...when i typing the resit Billing KIV...

i will forgot to photostep the Warranty Card of the handset...

It was a big trouble...ok...never mind...

i already call back the dealer..

and they promise they will bring the Warranty Card to me..

at thusday..becoz the wednesday is a public holiday...

the second times...i always forgot to remark the Micro sd and the service charge on that resit paper...stupid!!==

idiot...pls don't repeat the damn stupid act at the same time..

and then....i have a new plannig for going back to the Singapore..

because the problem of money...

GOD...everything the price is increasing...

so...the salary that i got here...is not enough...and too low...

not i have a high request...

at the first time...i'm back here is think to have a school..

but...the school dun have the course that i want...

and when i'm during the secondary school...i wan take the account subject..

so that...if the school have that coursing i also can't get that...

becase the accountant is can't get the science subject...

so thats why...ican't continue to studying...

Jschoong..pls don't care about that guy anymore...

evrynight...i have a same dream when i'm fall asleep...

he is appear in my dream...

and make me crying....i really think to let it go...

but..it's was not easy like my imagine...

and don't think about it...

LET'S SLEEP RIGHT NOW...!!

have a long time ago i din renew my blog again...
urgh..so busy for my job...
after finish working ...i gotta feeling so tired..!!==


i have to spend my blood and sweat to earn my money...
and now...i spend my saliva to earn my money...
ya...the salary is too low...
but...the job still need to keep on going...
after i have to learn the all skill in this company...
i will move myself...:)
this is my new planning...


feel faint...
because...i have a generation gap with my new collegue...
i went to working as early as possible...
but...when we leave...when we follow the time excatly...
they have another vision for us...
god...==...
i nothing to do already...if i'm not leave...
when i can go??
and ...i swear...i done my job today...
why u still using the special vision and look at me..??
why huh??
izit i'm look ugly...or...all of u dislike me vf no any reason??
plsssss....dun do that...i feel stress...==


last time is my manager bufday...
the collegue say want to make a celebration to her..
god...i think to say...
my mum birthday too...i still havent give her a celebration too...
just because of you...
ok ...fine...my mum also say never mind...
but...this celebration waste my most money you know..==
i have no money anymore...
i need to scrimp and save them ...
and bought a car and house for my parents...
haizzzz....actually i'm just angry because of you...
i can't make a birthday wish for my mum...
and...if you have any comment...just post to me...
no need gossip at the back of me ...plsss...
i can accept that...ya...i admit too my english is not good...
but i think it's not bad too...
any problem to me...you can tell me...
i'm ok what...
i won't like the others to fawn upon sb in every possible way for you...
LISTEN...I WON'T DO THAT...
i am who i am...i no need the whole people like me...
so i din care u dislike me...that's it the thing i want to say...

Hey yo!!

it's time to renew my rotten blog again..:)

i got my new job ...

it's a curtomer service (reception) in the ''Nokia Care''

and it's was a good beginning in my own life..

have a happy first working day..

and i have my new colleague...Chloe...Ah kit..Ah wai..

Jacky..Ah keong...Ah sian..

nice to meet u to u all...

thanks for teaching the new knowledge to me..

thanks a lot...and i will try my best to received all the message that u teach..

remember..listening carefully...and using the knowledge if needed..

and then ...Ah kit..and Ah wai...

i hope we still have the chance to play badminton together in sunday..:)

sometimes...my mind still can remind the bad damn thing..

think to crying...so...the settle way is...

make myself be busy...then ...i have no time spend to thinking about...

and i won't feel upset if...

but...i still feeling don't have the meaning of life...

and ...i also can't found the meaning that human being of..

urghhhhh...why i'm being of??

for live?? for working?? for parents?? for money??

i don't know...so...at the next step is looking for the target for my life..:)

GOD BLESS YOU ..JSCHOONG!!

----END---

hi,dude...have a few days ago...
i din update my new post and sharing my news here...
calm down....i'm not LC here...i just wanna test my language...
i know this is not a great idea...but it's a good way..:)
hehe...pls forgive...
alright...let's share the news i have recently...


the sad moment is passed...
and i'm already through the upset day...
it's time realize the things that i promise to myself before...
thats it...hard working for my job...
get a great result for it...and absorb the experince...
i believe i can be...:)


today...
i gotta chat vf my old friends that we tuition together before..
just know...he fall in love to me before.....==
lol...because something is happened so he dun have tell me the truth..
why he din say early...if he saying out..
i will accept him at before..but now...I'm scaring...
and he got his own girlfriends also..:)
thats good...we have our own life...
just remind those memory we have...:)
sometimes...i think...if he speak it out early...
that i won't get hurt from wen hao and Along...
sometimes i hope i can have a ''DORAEMON''...
stop the timeline...get back to the previous...and i will re-choice...
i hope i won't meet they two...
but the reality is...they are being in this world...
i swear...i wont be the third people between a couple...


last day is candy birthday...
we preparing a birthday celebration for her at the Euro house...
she looks happy..:)
i've ever seen she smile like that after her mother passed away..

happy birthday to my sister...:)

wished u have a good beginning for ur future...

dun be unhappy...and believe that u can be...=v=

i love this picture so much and much...
look so good..:)
we have fun in the Euro house...
it's a good place...have many mini games around there..
snooker...PS...and others...
it's a very nice place...i wanna go again next time...:)
because of you all...i can throw the moody away in temporary...
thanks a lot...

it's a bad day for me...

i'm acting happy...and cover my illness heart...

i'm feeling broken heart...

why...anytime...every boy...

treat me like this...

may b is a good things for him...

he say he can't give me everything...

he say we still is friends...

god...i dun want b friends...

i wanna know what i am in ur heart...

i never hope i can get anything from u...

i just hope have one''Js''live in ur heart...

that's it...how difficult??

dun say any excuse to me...

i don't want to heard that...

i dunno ....when we become like this...

i won't think..i won't dare to think we have our own future...

get married or what..

i just want you love me too...

why anytime...you makes me feeling good vf u...

after that kick me away as soon as well??

i don't understand what those guys thinking about..

love is love...

what u want care the fuck damn things??

it's just a reason that you want to breaking up with me..

no money...i can't hardworking together...

even how hard...

what the sucks reason u give??

u won't know what feelings i have right now...

u make me upset...but what i can do??

crying?? what the?!!

i crying u will come back to me??

sure u won't do that...

i just can say...

every boy just imagine i'm such like a fool...

yes...i am...

but ..thats not means you can hurt me...

Anyway...thx for hurt...you make me growth again..

u teaching me many things...

include how to believe someone...

really thx a lot...ad this time...

i will realize the promise vf myself before...

keep working...earn some money..

leave here again...going to the others places...

i hope...everytime i missing...

i will smile...

because we still have the sweet moment between the day we have be4..

i dun know how to explaine the mood i have right this moment..

just feeling sadness untill spechless..

i going to nokia care centre interview today...

dunno izit success...

i hope so...because...working is more better stay at home...

and thinking about the sucks things...

GOD BLESS ME...!!

and ...my dad....is old...55 years old...

i dun want he still keep working under the sun...

plsssss....give me a chance take care of my family okay??

i do...exchange my ''LOVE'' vf the safe of my family....

PLEASE>>>>!!!!

i missing you...uselesss...!!!