Js in the house``

7th Okt 2011...
the distance of the date i'm back ipoh are coming soon...
argh...suddenly feel so nervous...
izit my classmate still remember me..??
Choong Chooi Ken...this name still in ur mind..??
wished u all won't forget me...pray~


i gv my takahashi friends a call yesterday...
i gotta know that..shifu leave ''taka'' and open his own restaurant..
congratzz yup!! this saturday...is his opening day...
so sorry because can't sent u a opening business present...
but i sent u my wishing here...^^
wished u ''生意兴隆''....''生意滚滚来来来..''
when i back ipoh..sure will go there and support you yup!^^
gambateh...~~


feel so paiseh today...
i have a customer talking english to me...
but..i'm so brave...i answer her by english too...
luckily she know chinese too...she come from the idonesia...
is a friendly gals...^^
then my language is..''campur-campur''
english+mandarin...@.@..damn poor...
i tell her...i'm very jealous she can speak the english as well..
she say that i can do it too...if i really do that..
sure i have to learn...but nobody teach me what...
so i think i better go to have english course..==
but now,i'm damn busy for the jobs...
can't get it as the temporary....feel dissapoint..
but..i swear from here...i will realize my dream as slowly..
whatever 2 years...3 years...or 4years..or more..
i believe that...i choose to believe i can do it!!
whatever...no want will support me...
no one will agree the way i do...but i strenght for it..
because just the way Js are..^^


izit i really have a shadow for the love..??
already no confidence for it..??
already feel scared for it..??
scaring..the same else will happen to me...??
scaring the man i love lies me and leave me again..??
actually...i have think before...izit i accept others boys..
then i can forgot the memory happen before..
but...feeling is can't lies..my deeply heart just can hide one man i love..
no places to place other people...
other boy tell me he love me..
but i just feeling so disgusting...no feeling love...
they just can make me feel they are great..
think to learn them...but...
izit i have do something let them mistaking me??
i just wanna be a normal friends with ur guys...pls and pls and pls...
stop chasing me what...it just will make me feel afraid...
pls stop it...


leave my home already 6 months ago...
damn missing my warmth bed...my teddy bear..
i really hope all of this nothing are changes...no matter..
people say i'm childish...i really wish like that...
but...not at all what...everyone is changes...
include my lovely friends...my dear classmate..my dear parents..
all of them and me is change...
can i rearranged all of this..??
if i have a choice..i still will choose my mum be my mother...
choose my dear baba be my daddy...
choose the same class 4/5R...choose sitting beside the bao bao..
i love u all...!!