其实我不特别...

Actually...我只是个普通的女生...
普通的想别人关心我....
想要有很多的朋友...喜欢和朋友往外跑...
在这里...看见别人一大班的来吃东西...
有说有笑的...我想起了我在ipoh的死党们~~
如果你们也在我的身边~现在的我是无限的幸福~~

我真的很爱你们~无时无刻都在想你们~
每个人都向着自己的梦想前进与努力~
我不想停在原地...可是却不懂如何启程~
但，我会用尽我的努力去实现我的理想~

秋，是他的名字....
他是个普通的男生，长象不帅....
但，他拥有他自己的性格...
射手座，和我一样...
所以我比较喜欢和他信息和说话...
但，他却喜欢上我了...


他对我说过的每句话...都很上心...
他不会给我任何一句的承诺... 但是，他会把我想要的事情...
都完成...
他就象当初那个对我很好的前男友...
可是，他很成熟，有自己的想法...
有自己的故事与历史...
所以让我感到他的特别之处....

最近在看一部台湾戏剧....
''醉后决定爱上你''...感觉女主角遇到的事情与我一样...
但，她没我那么伤...
我知道自己即使活得开心...也不代表自己已经走出伤害...
戏里的主角仿佛懂得我的感觉...
说的每句话...都很适合形容我那时的心情...
所以每次看到她哭...我也跟着流泪了...
笨吧??


每次受伤时...都想找朋友诉说...
其实，即使说了...
事情发生了就是发生了...改变不了什么...
唯一能做的就是坚强起来...
当初的我多想不要未来...只活在过去...
但，这种想法...错得很...
当你付出了真心，对方却认为那是垃圾...
那种心疼...没人能够体会...


现在的我，是逼出来的...
我不会象以前那样软弱...或是象一些女孩装弱...
我不同，我会想证明给自己看自己的能力...
我不想输...
保持微笑...是我生命里重要的一部分...
笑，能让我忘记很多的烦恼...


这就是我，
其实我不特别....

he really is a special guy...

the first time that i see him...
thats nothing special...
but...for him...
he feel i'm the special girl...
i dunno why he will get this feel...
but..he keeping say like this...
he say...
he never see have a girl...can b hard for the working..
so strong...
and he never see a girl can keeping smiling for anyone...
so sweet...
he never see the girl the girl that can so mature of her word that she say...
so special...

hard for the working...
because,i just wanna to show that i can do it...
i'm not weak...girl also can be stronger...
i keeping smiling...
because,i wanna be happy everyday...
i dun wan be the sadness...
and i have a promise for myself...that is...live more better...
the mature word i say...
because...i have many experience of my life...
so that make me be mature little...

he is fall in love to me...
but...i dun have accept him...whatever...he is the special...
he is older than me 6 years...
but we dun have the problem of the communicate...
i love this feel...
he hope i can accept him...but...i'm not really grasp him...
so that,i hope...just be franz only...
i'm no ready to accept anyone...
i scared the hurt...

if i one more time hurt like that...
i think...
i can't be strong again...may b...
i will jump to the MRT track...

he is send me the chocolate...
==...lol...he wan make me be a fat girl???
i dun wan lorrr...
but...it's very thank you...
actually i so love the chocolate...hahahaha...

dunno why..i so curious of his history...
think to grasp the story of him...
he is the SAGITTARIUS just same like me...
so i like to talk with him...it's so...well...
he so obediant...he like the smoking...
but i tell him i hate that...
he promise me he will reduce the smoking because of me...
hahaha...just like a mummy talk with her son...XD
so funny to chat with him...
i really love this feel...
because of him...i'm be more happy at the singapore...

happy mother days~~

HAPPY MOTHER DAYS !!
is the only once i say these three words to my mother~~
but it also is the only once...i'm not beside my mum...
but in my heart...i'm already beside u...love you ya~~
because for me...everyday also is the family day...
thats because u all is in my heart...

today...i get the call of my mum ...wow...so surprise...
hahaha...
before...i think all of this feel is ''no need'' saying out...
but...after i arrived here...
i think to tell u all of my feeling...
because when i'm saying out...i still can get ur happiness smile...
i noe it...mum u no need the xpensive thing like jewelly or other else...
u just think the family can be safely..thats enough...


just now i heard a song...by the jay chou...
''ting mama de hua''...that's too good...
it's saying out all of my mind...
suddenly can get the feeling that jay chou write this song for his mum...
i really got it...
it's hard to explaine it..
buut i like the lyrics...it so bravo~~i like it~~

few days of my mood...

have a long time...
no online already...
because of the uncle peter...complaine to my anut i keep the computer...
so that...i just get back to him...
and keeping off at the line...
actually i felt so boring without computer...
but i think, it no way also...just ''tahan'' few days lorr...T^T...


i have a surprise at few days ago...
because i gotta friends here~~hoohoo~~~
damn happy~~
he is a good guy...actually i'm not really clear for him...
but he give me the good feel to him...
he just like the ppl that so hurt me before...
at least have 90%...i din hope i will fall in love to him...
just easy be a franzz...thats more good...

he is the first one that make me feel so closely...
and make me feel so easy...
we make a deal already..when we both have free..
just hang out~~^^
so happy he say like that...because i have long time no hang out with franz already~~
think to crazy whole day~~
hahahaha~~


mum...the thing that i promise u...i must do it...
don't be worry...and...i'm sorry...
the word that u say to me...
i will put in my heart deeply...
whatever...the job i have many thing i hate...
but i will control myself ...and whatever also just keep smiling~ok?
no need talk more n explaine...
because thats no use...
so now...my target is the money...i need save more money to let my dad n mum..
can b live more better...
gambateh!!!

hang out with my ownself today...

today hanging out with my ownself...

by the MRT to ''bukit batok''..

i can't believe i really dare to do like that...

keep walking..

keep shopping..

i buy the thing that i always need it...

make up tools..

XD..happy...but i can't let my aunt noe it..

bcoz she is so trouble..

always keeping say i buy the expensive thing..

i just buy the thing that i want...

but she always no understand me..

and today..i have to take some photo..

haha...have a long time ago...

i didn't have to upload new photo..

bcoz no time to take photo..n lazy...

 this is the picture that i capture at the library...

go there looking for some english books...

n copy down the vocabulary...go home and translate it..

it is for increase some knowledge...

i need to improve myself...

not only live for the money n workings...

if that...my live is means nothing...

i want make my live b more wonderful...

gambateh...

webcam with my family again...

damn happy...

everytime chat with them also feel so happy...

n i have to see 'bobby' already...

it so cute ...hahaha...

but it so naughty...

when i call it's name..it will find the sound come from...

it's damn funny...

i have to webcam with my best fran too...

hahaha...

she is so rude...gv the o0o to me...lol...

hahaha...love her so much...

we two have the understanding between we both...

i love this feel...

no need she saying out..i will noe her mind...

and the opposite...i no need saying out anything...

she will known what i want...

what i feel now...

it's a real franship lah...

it's really so happy today...

long time have not happy like today...

i begin love the world of alone...

now啊days...i follows the used to of my aunt n uncle...

eat vegetarian...

and go the temple guanyin and have a worship...

most ppl say this temple is so efficacious...

so i have 3 wish to guanyin...

dunno izit true...

but i just have to believe it...

bcoz...i hope my franz n family is safe...^^

after that...

the uncle show me the way that i can hang out...

thx so much...hahaha...

bcoz i really get manything that i want...

i hope i can b happy always...

i need buy some nes contex lens...

bcoz mine is expired already...

@.@...lol...

得双重人格了吗??

我变得人前人后一个样了...

面对别人时...

不管遇到怎样难搞的客人...

脸上依然个挂着那好看的笑容...所以经常收到客人给的tips...

有很人都赞我能干...

可是，我想要的是要得到所有人的认同...

我不怎么喜欢别人给我的批评...

因为我知道我的不足在哪里...

是开始有了工作的压力吗?

感觉很辛苦...

不管我多努力...多坚持...我阿姨和她男友...

依然不感满意我的工作表现...

经常说我笨..迟钝...糊里糊涂的...手忙脚乱...

我其实很想哭的，可是长大了...

被说两句就哭...很小孩...

每一次都保持沉默...

随他们说...我能做的我已经尽力了...

为什么就不给个机会从别的角度看我呢??

我的心是脆弱的...

很容易受到影响和伤害...

真想把自己伪装成一个黑武士...

勇敢的把问题解决..

很想自己单独一个到外去逛逛...散散心啊...

赶快到明他明天吧...

那我就可以到处去走走看看我未见过的事物...

很想念你...为什么呢?

我不懂...我自私...我很烦...

所以我选择不烦你了...

也对...我不是你的谁...即使你有了女朋友也不关我事...

可是我偏偏在乎...我竟然会害怕你不再喜欢我...

不再有人关心我...和在意我的一切...

我没用...我见异思迁...

我把戒指弄丢了...连丢在哪个角落我都不记得了...

因为我脑袋的记性不好...甚至...差...

对不起...这也许是注定的吧...

注定这一切...不会再开始...

想打给你...按下你的电话号码...

却没那个勇气按拨打...

因为我知道自己是个烦人的家伙...

有事才会找你...突然想起我们那9个月的回忆...

我帮你搽手霜的有一幕...

因为你...被家人骂的很狠的一幕...

和你维护我的每一幕...多希望时间可以回转...

回到很就以前...我会选择那个伤害我很深的那家伙...

从没出现过...那现在的我们是多么的美好...

可是回忆=从前...

不再是现在式...我希望你能幸福...

我也会离你远远的...

不会...绝对不会再伤害你多一次...

即使我多么想找你...

我也克制住自己不要按下拨打的那个button...

你对我也开始冷落了...

这也一是个好的开始..你的生命里的我会消失了...

对不起...